The Sas Journey

Don't ask me why, but I got up extremely early this morning because I'm excited to go to the doctor, and I am going to see Dr. Anchors. This is odd for me in that I majorally very much dislike doctors because I've seen quite a few in my life that just did not seem to make sense. Their decisions and discussions gave me the perception that they seemed to have occurred within a very safe set of parameters and almost mesmerizing, yet memorized script they were reading in their head.

My story isn't any different in that "life has happened" and I'm fat because of any number of things (yes, I do take responsibility and please don't argue in that it's a matter of just "controlling your own actions"), and I can't seem to get off the bumper car ride called "weight loss".

A couple of years ago (it's a blur really as to when exactly - I've given birth since then - but I'd guess 5-6 years) - that I had lost almost 80 pounds when I found phentermine and you didn't need a prescription to order it "online". I continued to take it after the weight loss to continue the experience of laser like focus and relatively calming affect it provided me.

I took it up until the day I found out I was pregnant. Had the most fun ever, eating whatever I wanted, when I wanted, how often I wanted and fully enjoyed the life growing within and the feeling of a very soft, very round body. I gave birth to a beautiful, very healthy baby girl whom has been the greatest gift ever - she's now 2. I'm still fat.

I then went to my doc at the time, and being who I am - openly talked about my experience with phentermine, the utter success I had with it and asked if they would be willing to work with me in doing it again, "legally". The flippant, immediate response was, "we don't do pills, we do lifestyle changes". I asked that if I were severely depressed, would they give me an Rx to help me, or tell me to go enjoy life and make some new friends?

That conversation didn't go well, and I didn't go back. I'm rarely sick with "common stuff" aka I'm very healthy "now" therefore don't see many docs outside of the gynny doc, and went back to a NP who I had seen way before I found phentermine on my own - she was willing to prescribe it IF I came into the office every two weeks for blood tests and monthly EKGs, and would only prescribe it for "3 months".

Alas, I dislike uneeded medical intervention and wasteful tests that cost money and raises insurance premiums for both my employer and everyone else. I explained this to her, she understood.. and I sadly understand her need to ensure that if I die driving around the beltway she won't be sued and raise her liability insurance.

I could have gotten "real" phentermine without a prescription - it's really not that hard. But I wanted to do it where I could openly ask questions, have an interactive, educated dialogue and use the "pill" to assist in that infamous "behavior modification". I'm all about doing what works for ME - because it is all about me - and in doing my research found Dr. Anchors. And yes Dr. Anchors, I'm learning the 6 Lessons/Committments - because again - it makes sense.

I'm lucky in that he's just around the beltway, so I've made an appointment to see him this morning at 9am. As I alluded to earlier in my seemingly rambling post is that I'm excited for a number of reasons - I like to write, and I love losing weight, and oddly enough want to share this in the hopes that it enlightens some, educates others and who cares about the naysayers.

And so, it begins!
Sas